2010 Resolutions

I can't believe I am saying this, but MTV has finally come out with a decent show that is actually worth watching... I will admit I have a guilty pleasure in the Real World, but the Buried Life is the show I am talking about. I'm not going to get into the premise of the show here, but the show has really made me evaluate my life and how I would like to live my life as though today is my last day on Earth. I want to live with no regrets. I've held myself back so much in life and I am ready to really live my life how I was meant to.

The majority of my friends would probably tell you I am a passive-aggressive person. As things have unfolded the last month or so of my life, I have realized how much passive people irritate and annoy me. I have realized it is actually a pet peeve of mine for another to be passive or passive-aggressive towards me. If that's a pet peeve of mine, how can I allow myself to be passive or passive-agressive any longer? As a result of my realization, I have taken a more active stance in my relationships and started to build a backbone for myself. Another issue I am beginning to see in myself is I don't allow my friends to be passive or passive-aggressive with me anymore. If they have a problem with me, I want to hear it. On the flip side, I'm going to let someone know when they've done something that doesn't make me happy. I don't want to let it sit and simmer. I've been at this for a couple weeks now and I think it is improving my life and making it much less hectic and stressful.

I think something that is almost synonymous to not being passive and passive-aggressive anymore is to not allow people to walk on me as much as they have been in the past. I've always stood up for myself when it was necessary, but I allowed the not so large things to just go by. I would give people an inch and they would take a mile when it came to things. If I give an inch to someone I expect them to take an inch and nothing more... don't expect me to do things automatically. This has been more of a challenge for me. It's so easy to just walk away, it's hard to confront the issue.. especially when your emotions are so wrapped up in that moment. This will be a bit more of a ride this year, but I'm ready for it!

2010 is a new year. I did pretty well on my 2009 new years resolutions and I hope to do even better in 2010. It will be a roller coaster ride for sure.